i shall try to distract myself, that i am a happy girl who scored somewhere along my expectations for japanese test, considering the fact that i actually missed four lessons before.

you know that's not the real case.

today my friend who sat beside me was on top of the world, for he got a little something from his beloved. and i watched him with envy. sure, and he claims that he has already broken up with her. HMM. then before that my friend asked me if i liked white, milk or dark chocolate. and i told him milk, and that's the fact. but in fact i felt like dark chocolate. the darker, the better, the more bitter. i couldn't help being sour the whole day. yet i acted all fine, laughing stupidly at myself for no reason, and only i know why.

the school was having music dedications during lunch time, and the music was great. i thought of it as some form of entertainment just to bring my mood until,

wherever you go, whatever you do, i will be right here waiting for you
whatever you take, or how my heart breaks, i will be right here waiting for you.

the lovely lyrics of one of my favourite love songs of all time slowly found its way and crept into my class on the fifth floor during geog lesson. when the music was playing all the way on the ground floor in another block. as expected, i almost crushed my geog handout.

my initial plan was to run home and sleep tomorrow if i didn't have any plans on, so that i dont have to FEEL the love in the air all around me that it gives me goosebumps. spending time alone by myself would be best. then kelly and i arranged a 'date' tomorrow, so looks like tomorrow i'll see whether some spasms would make be feel better. but even if it does, i'm just psycho-ing myself.

i wish that i could go to sleep tonight, and wake up on wednesday morning and realise, 'oh wow! yesterday was vday! and i missed it, man i totally forgotten about it!' would be the best way i think vday should go but you and i know that it's not possible so, *shrug*.

until then, ima tell myself for now that:

and when i have these four adorable guys in my own world, who really gives a damn about a stupid valentines and darlings and flowers and boxes of chocolates, right?

well i do.

cause the last thing i wanna watch is Him and the other bitch spend a sugar coated valentines together. so fuck this.

{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT
& somedays on mute mode

A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D

Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good. With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings. Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality. Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life. Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.

Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.

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